This is sad
Reading ppl’s blog
I read abt lost frendships… broken ones… forgotten ones…
N think abt mine… not that I hav many… but just that one…
I wan to ask… since when has it been like that?
But then again… I’m sure we all know…
It was a long time ago innocent frendship turned into smth uglier…
When the word ‘jealously’ was discovered…
At first, u n me… it didn’t work out well at all
Not at all
We were both so used to the idea of u being the natural leader
I was happen to follow ur lead, content to do wadever u wan to do
Then as we get older… things change
Not that I wan them to…
I discoverd my own identity… started being myself
N u felt lost… cuz I dun seem to need u anymore
But did u know I was lost too?
I had no idea how to get back a frend who didn’t behave like my frend
I know of all the ugly parts… all the hurtful things that happened behind my back
U may not mean it… maybe it was just spite…
But I was so confused, so so confused
I didnt believe u would do smth like that to me
I tried… but again n again I got hurt
Then I gave up
I decided that I should fight back
I decided that I should stop thinking of u as my frend
It wasn’t easy… cuz we bonded so easily everytime
But I hardened my heart.. n slowly, I learnt to stop caring
Stop asking, stop wanting to be wif u
I lost that frenship…
N I know it wouldnt come back
But I always had the support of the other you
The other one that I grew really close too
Our promises of not quarrelling wif each other
I know I left u alone when u prob needed me most
I know I failed as a frend to u
But I always tot our frenship was strong enuf
Cuz our foundation was built so strongly rite from the start
Then I knew I cant take things for granted
I know that frendships are like plants
It withers away
N just like that u wither away from me
Like dry rot, death slowly creeping aroun dus
But I didnt realise cuz I was too caught up in my own world
I never knew u left, never knew it was jus an empty shell I see
I still arrange to meet u, go out for outings
Attempt to resume that natural closeness of our frenship
But smth was already spoilt
U were affected by other factors
Stuff that tainted ur image of me
U cant cope with me as ur fren
N me being the frend of ur the other frend
U cant accept me for all I have done
So u put on a facade, going out wif me
When all u wanted inside was to just leave
Cuz it made u so uncomfortable
But did I know?
No
I went along happily, thinking how nice it is
How easily things fell into place
But I was wrong.
Yet again.
U never did forgive me for all I did
So cold wars started n ended
N started n ended
N admist all of it
I got so tired, so tired of complying to u
N I hardened my heart again
I chose to let u go
I lost that frenship
I lost too much, gave up too much, I wan them back, wan to return to when we all were happy, laughing at each other, tasting the great restaurants, doing things that we alone will never do. I wan that essence
back now.
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Blood Diamond

Set against the backdrop of the chaos and civil war that enveloped 1990s Sierra Leone, “Blood Diamond” is the story of Danny Archer (Leonardo DiCaprio), a South African mercenary, and Solomon Vandy (Djimon Hounsou), a Mende fisherman. Both men are African, but their histories and their circumstances are as different as any can be—until their fates become joined in a common quest to recover a rare pink diamond that can transform their lives.
While in prison for smuggling, Archer learns that Solomon—who was taken from his family and forced to work in the diamond fields—has found and hidden the extraordinary rough stone. With the help of Maddy Bowen (Jennifer Connelly), an American journalist whose idealism is tempered by a deepening connection with Archer, the two men embark on a trek through rebel territory. More than a search for a valuable diamond, the journey could save Solomon’s family and give Archer the second chance he thought he would never have.
Blood Diamond loses its way at times, but the power and tragedy of civil war, of greed and tainted motives, is undeniable.
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