Missin quite alot…

Leaving on a jet plane… dunno when I’ll be back again…

Well friends… dear people…

By the time you’re reading this entry, I’m probably on my way to or have already touched down at Sabah…

I dunno what I’m doing…

Everything was fine…

It was a sudden last minute decision…

After waking up… I just gathered watever I had and within 5 hrs, packed my bags, purchased my tickets and headed down to JB Senai Airport.


Where here I am now awaiting to board AK 5629…

ALL ALONE…

 

P/S: Call me if you want me home… I’ll be back just for you

Love Always,
SiLLy Kel…

 

[WHAT IS LIFE?]

Life 1: beach + sunshine + over 1000sq ft house + many trees + no pollution + work 9am to 5pm + own car + quiet environment + save money + simple life.

Life 2: excited entertainment + never get bored + new stuffs coming out everyday + busy life + busy people around u and make u feel energy + news come up in every sec + new friends everyday + everyday shopping + place where can speak your mother language + high expense + small house + polluted air + too many people + too hot + you work for your job not career/dream + no personal life + long working hours + can’t save + spend like crazy + rude people + health getting worse + no time for you to think about your life + get old faster.

~Which one u prefer?
~

I hate the sour taste of failure.

I dislike reaching out for something,

only to miss it by just that lil bit.

I hate to question myself,

“What is it that went wrong?”

“Why ain’t you good enough?”

All of a sudden,

I doubt myself, my abilities.

Maybe I am not so special after all.

I am keeping my fingers crossed

for that one last bit of hope.

Been very busy lately. Today went out for two site visits, the first place is at Lim Chu Kang Police Coast Guard. Sorry, no pics! No camera allowed. Haha!!!

On the way out, visit the Haydairies Goat Farm just a distance away from the coast Guard. Haha… Bought a bottle of milk, taste horrible!

After lunch, been to Qifa Primary School for inspection before handing over to the MOE on Thursday… Finally, it’s going to over soon. Hopefully, no more school projects… tired… very tired!

Great weekend. Steamboat… Shopping… Doing the thing you like make you happy!

Went for dinner at Sheng’s place with his godfather & Joel. Haven’t met up with Sheng for quite sometime leh, so decide to meet up for dinner before going for shopping.

After dinner, Sheng saw a nice pair of jean and decide to try it out. Wow… he happly walk out and tell us that the jean is too big for him. GOD! WAT IS HE HINTING! In the first place, when met up with Meiqin and Fongyi earlier on, already mention to you liao tat have slim down abit le. <span face=”Arial Narrow” style=”font-size: 1.8em; color:#996600;”Wow Kao! Must wait till u try new clothes then can believe us isit?

~Trust your instincts and listen to your friends, because they may be right when you don’t want them to be. ~

I seriously hate it when people refuse to use their brain, when people rather choose the easy way out for things that don’t happen the way they want it to happen.

Suddenly I feel like a sinner for the recent things that I’ve done. No, I’m not implying that I’m wrong. I’m not in the first place, I’m super sure! But of coz, that is never what others would perceive. Can’t blame them for behaving in such a whiny manner though, coz I used to be like that and I’m STILL like that occasionally.

But then… thinking of what actually happened seriously hurt me.

Friends! This word is highly underestimated. Is it true that we can have no true friends in the workplace? And by this simply word, I’m referring to people who understand me, people who bother to clarify doubts with me and people who won’t flare up at inevitable issues with me.

Difficult huh? I think so too.

But I’m used to it! I’m used to being misunderstood! For being blamed for things that I don’t even know in the first place! For being a sinner, for someone to vent their frustration on when things don’t go their way, when they feel that things that they want, go my way instead! Fuck!!!

I’m hurt but it’s ok. Though I didn’t expect such a huge reaction when I broke the news in the first place, it’s ok now. I’ve learnt not to brood that much, not to explain for the sake of explaining when there’s absolutely no need for me to explain in the first place!

People can give me fucking-care attitude for all I care. These are the people and WILL be the people whom I know that I will learn to fuck care in return in the future! These are the people who are not worth a single shit in my life! These are people who will become non-existent in my life from now on!

I AM like this. If you are unhappy with me over certain issues, SPELL IT OUT. Don’t shit behind my back and make it seem as if I just stabbed you ten times when all I did, was to mind my own stuff.

Call me selfish for all I care! It doesn’t matter to me anymore! It doesn’t matter… simply coz between you and me, there’s no such thing as ‘friend’ anymore!!!

If you can’t grow up and accept things as they are (like what I’m trying my darnest best to do now), if you would rather choose to continue to blame others for whatever that is happening to you (when you know for god damn sure that it is NOT their fault in the bloody first place), if you think that the whole world is betraying you (when YOU are the one making your own life miserable)… you are NOT my friend!!!

This is the problem with people, sometimes it is a problem to me too…

Human beings always think that they have the worst lives. The question is: why won’t they ever stop to ask anyone if anyone has ever envied THEM instead?

They won’t… of coz… they won’ ask such a question… simply coz they are too caught up in their so-called problems to realize the goodness that lies somewhere else.

So… just to let you know… if you think I’m the one leading the lucky life or whatsoever, let me tell you, I think YOU are the one instead. (don’t bother to ask me the reason why though, I can’t be bothered anymore)

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The Departed lives up to expection. Great acting from the ensemble especially from the 3 leads: Leonardo Di Caprio, Matt Damon and Jack Nicholson.

The dialogue is filled with male machismo, macho language and profanity ("fuck" is peppered in practically all exchanges)… Lots of memorable, intense acting - the scene where Jack Nicholson interogates Di Caprio to smell out the rat stands out.

The ending is slightly different from Infernal Affairs but a satisfactory one. I thoroughly enjoy the movie. It’s nearly 2.5 hours long but one hardly feel it especially the last 1 hour, very exciting. I hope the Oscars finally give the award of Best Director to Martin Scorsese and at least a nod for Best Actor to Leonardo Di Caprio.

Should we eat according to hunger only?

Or should we eat according to desire too?

Hunger vs. Desire, which comes first??  Wat makes one fat???

I eat according to both.  Indeed I eat according to my anger too… THEN WHY AM I STILL SO THIN!!!

Yawnz… I’m so tired. My week is always so pack. Now I dun even have time to sit down and stare into space. *Sobs*Sobs* Unlike this idiot of mine, he has all the time in the world to email me nonsense during office hrs. Furthermore, he can go shopping during office hrs … FUCK! I have already warn him not to piss me off… If not I’ll email his boss! Wahaha…* Mr Idiot, kindly give me a treat SOON to appease my anger *

     Bo000………Today is only Monday!!!

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