~FoRgEt My PrEsEnCe, FoR I WaSn’T ReAlLY Here BeFORe. ~

~ The Art of letting go… is… to eat a bowl of mee pok ta , then go to sleep… ~

Mee Pok Uncle

Really I hope I can find someone who will love me deeply… Who will put me as important as her life… Never in any moment that I will feel that I am not important or she can life without me…

In my Previous ex girlfriend… I feel deeply in love but think is only in the first inital few stages of our relationship… the honey moon period I guess… things changes and end… In my last relationship that last longer… our "honey moon "Period last a bit longer… but as time goes by trials comes in… then  now friends are more inportant than me… Yes…! Friends are DO more important than me….. ??  Maybe she enjoy the time with her friends more than me.… 

What Someone say is true… like no matter how long the relationship u will still miss the particular someone… in ur heart… somewhere out there in ur heart that someone is important… Everything u do u will think of that person… Everything u would want to share with that person… be it sorrow or happines… Everything comes from ur heart . Everything U do comes from ur heart not because of other reason....

Anyway …. I hope to find someone that will love me with all her heart… hee hee… HEY!!!! Any GooD GERSss to intro!???!!! I aM SINGLE!!!! hee hee… nevermind let nature take its course …

Tonight, we talked about regret…

Most times it would lead to relationships… failed relationships.

I have tried to always be forward looking and never to look back and regret my decisions, no matter how painful for a lesson learned is experience gained.
But there are days when u think back on the "What ifs…"

As I have said… some regrets that we have, we should not voice out especially those that are so very deep, cos by voicing them out u feel it more… and sometimes really what good will it do to ponder on what has not been.

There are some instances I wish had turned out differently or had been handled in a better way.
Regret is too strong a word to be used here but to some extent I guess there is a lil regret.

Just dont see a point of regretting, coz we cant turn back time… though there were times where I made mistakes, but we still have to move on… and learn from the past…. =)

I bet most of us have done something so ridiculous that the thought of it just cant stop us from laughing and thinking how silly we were….. I have got a few, but my top favourite got to be this

I can never bowl well cos of my size. So on one occassion, my friends and I were so bored, and so they decided to go bowling at the city. I was like, ‘Shit, do we have to?’ On my first throw, instead of bowling towards the pins, the ball fell back and it started rolling towards my friends who were sitting behind me, trying to cheer for me. All of them burst into laughter, how how how embarrassing!!! On another try, I actually fell onto my ass!!! I think coz the lane was slippery, with oil spray, and I just slipped down. Sigh… bowling is just not my thing, and to think that I once was working in a bowling alley b4… gosh…

Here a joke that I received via email.

A man checked into a hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an e-mail to his wife.
However, he accidentally typed wrong e-mail address, and without realizing his error, he sent the e-mail.
Meanwhile… somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband’s funeral. The widow decided to check her e-mail, expecting messages from relatives and friends.

After reading the first message, she fainted. The widow’s son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:   

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To: My Loving Wife
Subject: I’ve reached
Date: 16 May 2002 ……….
I know you’re surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now, and you are allowed to send e-mails to your loved ones.
I’ve just reached and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow.
Looking forward to seeing you then!
Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was.
Thanks!

Well, if you have any funny moments to share, please do... it always feel great to have a good

laugh...

 

Will you ever befriend again with your ex? Some feel is alright to continue the friendship, still be able to go out and catch up time even if they are seeing someone else. Whereas some will totally choose to ignore and if they were to meet up by chance, they will pretend they are invisible…

Well, it goes for the same with friends. Maybe you just had a hugh arguement and felt is hard to accept that this had happened. Would you still want to keep in contact after a cooling off period or would you rather not be friends anymore?

The reason for posting up this entry is because, strangely, yesterday night, I was added onto a msn address. To my surprised, it was this guy friend of mine, and we had an issue in late April this year. We werent on talking term and then out of the blue, he came talking to me, apologising for his wrongdoings and hope that we can still be friends again. I was touched but just found it strange. Because of his character, he is way stubborn than me and the way we ended the whole friendship and conversation werent in a very nice way. I know it sounds silly, but I was actually quite terrified and didnt know what to say to him. Maybe I wasnt prepared and need time to regain my thoughts back again.

Then shortly after him, about an hour later, my ex started to chat with me on msn. That was a big shocker to me!!! Coz each time online, is always a silence between us. But then again, everything happened for a reason and so there is no point holding grudges. So she started off with asking how was I and my studies. Then towards the end, she thanked me for giving her a lovely and dovely memories when we are together. She actually mentioned that she was afraid to talk to me as she thought I was pissed off or something. I mean everyone needs time to cool down ya, I’m not some superman who can accept things so quickly!!!

Oh well, it is nice to hear from them again, maybe they took up a hugh courage before doing so. I’m not sure if I will if I was in their shoes. Maybe I will if I am at fault, coz for me, I just don’t wish for a long term friendship to end just like this, or just because we are no longer together, we can’t be friends again.

But seriously, to those who are reading this, will you still be able to accept your ex again as a friend? Would still be able to accpet a long term friend who hurt you before? I just wonder what you guys will do…..

~ Don’t cry because is over, smile because it happened. ~

I’m beginning to love this song "Because of you" by Kelly Clarkson. Is a song sang from a broken family’s perspective. In the chorus, she mentions that she won’t discover new places or try anything new. She doesn’t believe anyone is sincere. They have selfish motives. It’s ingrained in her by one of her parents. "Because of you/I never stray too far from the sidewalk/Because of you/I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt/Because of you/I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me/Because of you/I am afraid." She sang in such an intimate way that upon watching the music video, it actually brought me to tears… I tend to get very emotional easily…   I told myself, I wont let this happen to me in future, I dont think is a good sight for a child so young to see all these violent that bring them hurt. And I wouldnt want my children to go thru the pain…..

Why do people only learn to treasure something so dearly once is gone but always took it for granted when is still within their sight? Why cant they just cherish and grab hold of it while it is still right beside them? Why bother crying over spilt milk? Why bother regretting? Arghh.. I just dont understand!!! Is right there in front of you, but you prefer to let it go… just like that… WHY!!! I’m sorry to say, but these people dont deserve to be loved and should be shot in their head! So please, just appreciate what is in your hands now, and if possible, dont let it go. This does not necessary applies only to relationships, but also to many other matters.

~ If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together anymore, keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever. ~

Currently Listening <strongBeacause of You By Kelly Clarkson

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I am Tired…

I am tired… Just got back one hour ago… very tired!!! Touched down from flight this evening. Hee hee… so happy to be back home after a week.. miss my bed and my laptop… Have to catch up with u guys…

Had a great time sightseeing… will upload the pics real soon…